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Here is an update on my mom...and it is not a good one. Last I wrote, she had had her surgery and I had hoped that she would be doing much better on Saturday. That is not the case.
When I arrived at the hospital on Saturday, she was disoriented and combative with the nurses. She kept trying to get up out of bed, so they had to put an alarm on her bed to notify them each time she tried to get up. I gently told her she needed to stay in bed and the look she gave me was unbelievable....there was so much anger and hate in her eyes...she looked at me and said "You need to stop being a smart ass".
I backed up and went out into the hall to talk to the nurse. Apparently, my mother is going through alcohol withdrawal (and nicotine as well...she smoke(d) 2 packs a day). She has emphysema and COPD. She is refusing to eat, and is refusing to consider quitting smoking. The doctor just called me and said that they may be releasing her today or tomorrow to a rehab center, so that she can get stronger before going home....except that I don't think that she can go home again. The doctor says that if she starts smoking again when she gets out of the hospital, then her outlook is very poor.
Why do I feel like running away? Why do I wish that my brother would just handle all of this? What I have not explained, is that my mother and I do not have a good relationship. My mother very obviously favors my brother, and she admits to doing so. She is angry with me and I am not quite sure why. She is one of those people that is angry with the world...she is just a bitter angry person. She puts on a big front when she is talking to my brother. It was not always this way....at one time, my mom was my best friend.....
OK, I did not want this to turn into a bitching session and it is...I apologize.
I won't be blogging regularly while this is going on. Just please keep me and my family in your prayers during this difficult time.

XOXO Missy