When Leslie Morgan Steiner was in her early 20's she thought she had met the man of her dreams. Conor was charming and handsome...he swept her off of her feet. At that point in her life, the world seemed to be her oyster. She had a job that any young professional would die for......she was an editor for Seventeen Magazine. Along with her much-loved job, she dated frequently, had a close group of friends, and a shared apartment in NYC.
After a short whirlwind romance, Conor and Leslie move in together and shortly after the trouble begins. At first, there were subtle signs....Conor was extremely jealous of Leslie's friends. She began to distance herself from many of them, to keep Conor happy. Things slowly got worse, until he finally hit her for the first time.
There were actually times while reading this that I felt sorry for Conor. He grew up in an abusive household and suffered at the hands of his step-father. But for the most part, I did not feel sorry.....I wanted to kill him myself. Leslie kept thinking that he would change. "Next time things will be better....." Leslie confided in her closest friend, who advised her to leave him immediately. But, Leslie loved Conor...and kept loving him, even while he was hitting her.
I would get so upset when Leslie kept giving Conor second chances. What would it take for her to leave him for good?
This was a painful memoir to read, although I enjoyed it, looking forward to what was going to happen next and hoping and praying for Leslie's safety and for her to find the strength to leave her abusive marriage.
Paperback: 352 pages
Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin; Reprint edition (March 30, 2010)